罪过啊罪过! Oh, Evils!
因为特定历史的原因，中国是有不少滥竽充数的排队而上的教授，但我不是，也不想是。我是靠，也仅能靠，百倍的奋斗，纯粹业务上的奋斗，获得业务上的破格提拔。我非常看重这种社会对我的努力的肯定，在中国，我得到了这种肯定，我的生命是因此而发光的。我不想，也不愿意失去我从小就懂得的一个公式 --不断的努力就会获得成功。我不愿意接受这样的背后操纵的任意 --用撞车，摧残身体，封锁，压制来取得利益。罪犯们犯罪了 ---人为地，用摧残身体的方法阻碍了我的在业务上的发展，让我和我奋斗几十年的教授生涯告别，让我象半植物人一样活了7年，这种苦痛难以想象 --- 必须赔偿 --不管罪犯们如何制造理由都无济于事--这是我的唯一可以接受的公式.
我不知道应这样告诉你们 --- 如果你们还是我想象中的人类：当一个教授正在按照他所遵循的轨迹在事业上不断创造的时候，当他正在年富力强该出成果的时候，同时也是该他和他的家庭享受生活的时候 ---- 突然出现了巨大的长达7年的人生断裂 - 是人为的，罪犯们合伙干的 -我被粗暴地剥夺了生活，生命，和生存的权力 ---- 人的最本质的基本享受被剥夺了 -- 性爱 -- 我实在怀疑这是否是现代文明社会。
如此漫长的日子，被毫无道理地剥夺了性爱 ---- 人 --- 在半抑制中度过几乎十年 --- 当清醒过来时 --- 记忆却还留在十年前 --- 眼望着镜子中不是“我”的我 --- 我不知怎样向世界上的人们诉说 ----罪过啊 ----而据不止一人相告, 这样做是为了“让我把痛苦写下来说这是为了得偌贝尔奖 “----我没问过瑞典设立偌贝尔是否是是这样授予的。---- 我没问过瑞典设立偌贝尔是否是是这样授予的，你们说呢 --- 我们不妨写信给诺贝尔奖金委员会问问。
我书写的东西退回到中，小学时代 - 我在中小学就是这样写，今天，我站在这里却和本应是我的博士生的人比写作 -- 还说我这样写是罪犯们对我性压抑的试验成果。。(实在对不起，我不想说杀风景的话 --- 但是，我写这些东西的感觉是：我在中，小学做作文)简直是自欺欺人。大学的教授们自己有神经病 --- 看看中国文化大革命时挨整的有多少人--- 把他们写的材料来研究研究？烂扯淡！
明明是患精神虐待狂的罪犯们在下意识中宣泄了灵魂深处的罪恶野性，却堂而皇之说什么要创造一个‘诺贝尔奖’获得者。七情六欲每人都有，何须酷刑折磨才能写出好东西 --- 如果是这样，诺贝尔奖委员会应在监狱中。
我的生命之树被强行折断，知识结果被强行打乱 ---- 罪过啊 -----
据说是幕后操纵的主犯相信一个理论 ---- 性压抑变诗人 ---- 我也不知你们调查过没有 ---莎士比亚，雪莱，泰格尔; 中国的李白，杜甫，唐白虎 --- 谁是性压抑造出的--- 就是真正性压抑的艾米利-迪耿生 --- 不是没有性功能，而是没有性对象 ---- 性的动力使她想入非非 --- 用诗宣泄， 而却让我有性对象，却无性功能 --- 这是什么理论 ---没有性动力就没有想象力，就没有诗！ 罪过啊罪过！
就算是要我写小说，我们也可以调查一下世界作家，看哪一个是性压抑造成的 --俄国托尔斯泰，法国莫帕尚，英国，美国海明威，中国曹雪芹，哪个是太监 -我决无作家等於放纵的意思，但作家决非没有性功能。如何要强行压制我的性欲去作试验，希特勒的试验 --- 却对外假称为了创造一个偌贝尔诗人 ---或谎称笔者有男女问题之嫌 ---- 欺骗不懂的文盲 ---- 罪过啊 ---请问在明华网页上发表诗歌的人是不是 ---不是神经有毛病或是性欲有毛病的人.
当现代科学告示你 --男性性激素强行降低是会导致自杀的 -- 你就明白 -- 罪恶所在 -试验完毕，弄死试验者 --- 罪犯们无端大喊打XX杀人犯 ---借手杀人 --一个地地道道的迫害案，反人类案和谋杀案！！
Sunny X-Y. Guan
There are some Chinese professors and scholars, admittedly, who were promoted to their academic positions not based on academic merits due to certain historical reasons. But, I am not, and I do not intend to be, one member of that group. I was working assiduously, of my own accord, totally of my own accord, to strive for academic success. The promotion that I had earned, to my perspective, is the social recognition of the value of my contribution to the society because of my diligence and tenacity in academic pursuance. I value enormously such recognition.
In China, I earned such recognition. To me, it is sunshine of my life. I have never planed to, nor am I willing to, abandon the formula that I had summarized from my life experience since my childhood --- working hard means success. Therefore, I am most reluctant to accept a clandestine arrangement here at the University of Minnesota, a conspiracy ---- using car accident, destruction of health, economic sanctions and suppression of sex desire to win benefit for myself and, maybe for the community. criminals did and has committed crimes --- artificially, using medical and chemical means to curb the development of my career, making me farewell my career for which I have been strived for decades, making me to live as a walking corps for 7 years.
Pains and sufferings are immeasurable and unimaginative. It is a torture too much beyond human tolerance. No matter how many reasons that criminals tried to create and to cover up --- will be in vain. Criminals have to be punished, the loss has to be compensated --- this is the only formula that I will accept.
I am not sure how to tell you --- if you are human beings who believe the standard that we share, with full rational conscious --- when I was as a professor who had been advancing continuously along my course of academic development, when I was at the peak of my age and career and was going to establish myself internationally in addition to my home country establishment, when I was at the time I should fully enjoy my life with my family and my beautiful wife --- all of sudden, there occurred a big gap of “fault zone” out of life-earthquake, which has lasted for 7 years, in which there was no thinking, no reading, no imagination, no feelings, and no experience --- it is not a natural disaster like earthquake, but a disaster created by criminals. I was savagely deprived of life, spirit, and the basic human rights. I was deprived the basic rights as a male human --- pleasure of sex ---- but was offered torture of sex ---I suspect if this is a society in the modern sense we call civilization.
Such a long time --- deprivation of human essential pleasure of sex --- spending my time with only half-conscious for almost a decade. When I was awaken --- memory stays with ME but ten yeas ago. Looking at the "me" as a NOT-ME in the mirror, I really do not know how to tell people in the world --- Oh, what an evil! --- Conspiracy. But not just one tells me that the main criminal is at the University and the main criminal declared that they forced me “write down my sufferings and it will earn me NOBEL --- I have never asked Swedes if their standard to give a NOBEL is based on torture!!!
My writing style goes back to my secondary school time and college time--- I wrote like this when at the secondary school. Today, I have to compete my writings with those who should be my own doctorate advisees – when I put product of such word-games to the website, and I was told that “sufferings really work” --- what an absurd criminal theory and act! --- I was push back to my college life!
It was said that the main criminal assumed a theory --- sex suppression produces poetry.
I am not sure if you have done some investigations --- if any of those famous poets are the products of sex suppression --- Shakespeare, Whitman, Frost, Li Bai --- anyone of them wrote poems by sexual suppression --- NONE! The only exception is Emily Dickinson. She was capable of sex but had no sex partner. Why should let me live with a woman but de-function my sex --- It is an anti-human torture!
Talking about fiction. We may investigate novelists in the world. Who is the product of sexual suppression --- Hemingway, Molaire, Chao Xue-qing. None. I do not mean that novelists should be allowed to be romantic, but how could that happen that criminals tried to make a novelist by disabling his sexual ability. Do not forget --- Love and death are the permanent theme of literature.
Why should I be forced to be a lab-rat for the test of relation between writing and sex --- Hitler did this against the captured. Why should Americans have done it --- evils!!!
It is totally absurd. The researchers wanted to cheat the others and wanted to cheat themselves. These researchers were criminals, sexually crazy, lunatic cases and insane --- see how many Chinese writers were mistreated during the cultural revolution and none of them had anything worth talking about during that period of time, how could University of Minnesota created a writer by torturing him? Cheating, criminals and insane!!! Totally absurd!
Actors and actresses at the Hollywood may laugh, cry, yield, angry --- very true to life, but there is absolutely no need to really torture them to make a real scene.
It is obvious that criminals outlet their own wildness and craziness in their soul, but disguize such a criminal intent with a holy reason as they were doing a psychological test. Emotions and feelings are characteristics of human nature --- why should producing good writing by torturing? If so, NOBEL committee needs to go to prison to select candidate!!! O, Evils!!!
We heard two propagandas that have been scattered --- One is shinning --- make Sunny Guan as Nobel Laureate poet (in case it really happens) --- The other is ugly -- he was treated like this because he was sexually aggressive (in case it fails to make Sunny a NOBEL) --- deceiving illiterates and ignorant police. Oh evils! May I ask how many of you who wrote poems on the Minhua.com are sexually suppressed or psychologically problematic---- None.
According to the theory of modern science, suppression of male hormone will lead to suicide. From this, you would understand where the problem is--- after the test is done, criminals intended to seduce the victim to death. The propaganda of XX murderer last year reveals that the whole incidence is not that simple, but a case of the conspired homicide, persecution and genocide!